In a recent interview with Billboard, singer Lana Del Rey admits she saw a therapist three times over her fear of dying and the fact that she’s prone to bouts of panic.
“It’s hard for me sometimes to think about going on when I know we’re going to die…” the 30-year-old admits. After witnessing a character’s death on television at the age of four, the singer—born Lizzy Grant—recalls asking her parents whether everyone was going to die. When they simply replied, “Yes,” Del Rey says she broke down crying. “I was totally distraught! I broke down in tears and said, ‘We have to move!’”
To cope with anxiety, Del Rey creates lists and rewards herself once she accomplishes a task. One such reward includes going for a swim in the ocean—even though Del Rey isn’t a huge fan of sea creatures.
“I’ll go for a walk on the beach or swim in the ocean. I go for swims and am actually shocked I do that. Because one thing I’m terrified of is sharks,” she admits.
The Billboard interview also touches on the possibility of having children—something Del Rey admits she’s thought about recently, especially since she just turned 30.
“I’d love having daughters. But I don’t think it’d be a good idea to have kids with someone who wasn’t … on the same page.”
The “Summertime Sadness” singer also reveals that the most comforting thing that helps her cope with her panic and fear of dying is sitting in her studio chair while writing or singing. And it apparently pays off; Neilson reports that Del Rey has 2.5 million U.S. album sales and her fourth album “Honeymoon” debuted at No. 2 on the Billboard 200 in September.
Wagner, B., “Billboard Cover: Lana Del Rey on Why Her Pop Stardom “Could Easily Not Have Happened,” Billboard, October 22, 2015.